August is a wicked month

I try to write every month on my blog. I am but an evening away from September with no words penned in August…Some musings for the last few hours of the month.

I turned 39! I turned 39. I turned 39? #ITurned39

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I have been listening to the beautiful country music of Courtney Marie Andrews and a line from her song ‘Honest Life’ has been replaying in my mind:

“Right when you have it all figured out, life comes to throw you another doubt”.

This feels very fitting for me right now. For us all I’m sure.

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For several years whilst living in London I had weekly counselling and in one of our last sessions we discussed how I imagined my future. Like now it is mostly blurry. All I could and ever can imagine is a little house with my books, my paintings on the wall. With friends in and out. Friends of all ages in and out. And me out and about.

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I have been enjoying another Courtney Marie Andrews song. ‘This House’. In it she sings;

“There’s a bed upstairs if you’re ever in town, or if you need a place to get your feet back on the ground. There’s coffee in the cupboard, take any food you want out. My house, my house, is your home”.

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Next week I have a friend coming to stay. He is in Leeds for work. Earlier this week a friend sat in one of my comfy chairs (scavenged by a family member) and we discussed the news whilst I roasted him some vegetables, warmed some bread and served a meal on the table I pulled across the room. I have a poetry bookshelf. Some pictures to look at. Maybe I shouldn’t worry about those doubts so much.

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So August. See you next year. For 40.

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